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Eddie [Redacted]
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
Previously i had any contact information written here, but now i don't, if you have any questions of how to contact me elsewhere, please note me, and if i trust you, i'll give them to you. v w v
You could say, I'm back at deviantart.

Am i back to what i'm supposed to be doing? probably not quite yet. but what's been dragging me away, i have finally parted ways with it, and i think i feel much happier already. I've really just been needing to find myself, and when doing so, i realized, i have to go back to the start.~ in a rush to find something more than i already had, i have found that really, less is more, you're better having less things that you love, than more things that you don't feel a passion for. v w v
  • Mood: Pirate
  • Listening to: YAR HAR FIDLE DE DEE
  • Reading: BEING A PIRATE
  • Watching: IS ALRIGHT WITH ME
  • Playing: DO WHAT YOU WANT
  • Eating: CAUSE A PIRATE IS FREE
  • Drinking: YOU ARE A PIRATE
so uh, yeah.. i've been very jumbled up lately.. 

really, i'm just saying this right now, i feel i'm on the edge of another breakdown, i have a billion things to do but also currently having the feeling of anxiety constantly on my back, i'm really unstable right now, and idk. i can't get myself to do the things i need to do, and i feel like i'm sending my future further and further into the trash, but also i'm trying to keep myself busy, because another thing constantly trying to creep up on me... suicidal thoughts, again. don't know where they're coming from, everything was just fine until i started letting myself slip, and now i can't get myself back up. and to think that not long ago i had everything going for me, and really, it's all my fault i got myself here..

i've been... avoiding, some, and constantly pestering others. there's so many things in my life right now i'm not ready to deal with.. the truth, consequences, romance, responsibilities, loneliness... usually i'm fine by myself, but lately i'm more dangerous to myself than ever, i feel i'm losing grip of the only thing that kept he holding on before. i'm just.. a mess, and i don't know what to do. i don't want to scare you guys, but i don't want to leave you in the dark, either. i just feel like i need to let off some steam, or else i'm gonna blow, and now i'm constantly reminding myself that i'm still the same stupid kid i was before.. foolish, lost, and afraid.

i just don't know anymore. i can't.. i just wish life had a reboot button, because right now, this all seems meaningless.
  • Mood: Pirate
  • Listening to: YAR HAR FIDLE DE DEE
  • Reading: BEING A PIRATE
  • Watching: IS ALRIGHT WITH ME
  • Playing: DO WHAT YOU WANT
  • Eating: CAUSE A PIRATE IS FREE
  • Drinking: YOU ARE A PIRATE
i constantly want to draw my character biohazard and G but fucking do you know how hard it is to draw them two-

just to make sure i don't fuck up the arm anatomy i'm constantly looking at machamps for references. seriously and G just had to become even more complicated to draw, especially because it's hard to traditionally color an all black creature. and so many shades of green i have to go through just to get biohazard's right color. do you know how many different green colored pencils i have to use for him? SIX. didn't realize there were that many colors, right?

i love them to death but it's just so hard. plus i always want to commission a really good artist to see how he would look like drawn by them but i never have enough internet money.
  • Mood: Pirate
  • Listening to: YAR HAR FIDLE DE DEE
  • Reading: BEING A PIRATE
  • Watching: IS ALRIGHT WITH ME
  • Playing: DO WHAT YOU WANT
  • Eating: CAUSE A PIRATE IS FREE
  • Drinking: YOU ARE A PIRATE

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Ravin's Human form by xEmoXDudetx
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i will draw your oc (traditional of course) and color it to the best of my abilities (i am very capable shading rainbows)

i can draw ANYTHING cartoonish. do NOT expect me to draw something like a real life human face. XD

and when i say i can draw anything, i mean ANYTHING. xD i have no limits or shame. i need points. ;v;

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CelestialRayna Featured By Owner 2 days ago

Hi!

Thank you very much for the :+fav: on this Fairy Tail picture:

Timeskip Dragon Slayers by CelestialRayna

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sparsyle Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Student Digital Artist
aww well just know that I appreciate all of them!
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xEmoXDudetx Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
no problem, also you don't have to thank me for faves. v w v 
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sparsyle Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the favorite!! 5 seconds hug 
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LunarSkyStorm Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the fav :3 !!!
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