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Kendra Ricketts
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Skype: xEmoXDudex
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it feels like everyone has abandoned me. trying to stay optimistic about the broken hand completely backfired. instead, after the longest time of trying to keep it away, my depression is back, and i don't have the strength to pull out of it. it seems that everyone i turn to for company is either too busy, never on, or just doesn't give a fuck about me. on my pokemon account, i've attempted at many new friends, and i've done my best to hold them up in their hard times... but it seems all those relationships are one sided, so i may as well cut them off.

i'm thinking of deleting Bloodlust-Gliscor, quitting PMDU, and sadly, maybe even quitting my own group. i trust my admins that if they truly want to keep it going that they could handle it on their own. ever since i made it i regret it, because ever since i've been nothing but a waste of space, because i can't even get one fucking comic done for them. they're just so much stronger than me, i feel useless...

i can't stand it anymore, i just want my life back, i just want my friends back, i wanna play minecraft in groups, i wanna have a conversation where i'm not just background noise, i wanna have an rp where there are at least 20 posts a day and a neverending skype conversation on the side.

and i must sound like a hypocrite right now. i didn't get on until 9pm today. i hardly said one word to my boyfriend. i didn't even want to leave the bed today, i was stuck running around with my family, and then i reluctantly spent the rest of the day from 3 to nine 'hanging out' with my mom. i've been playing this ridiculous ripoff of emerald and trying to have livestreams but no one gives a fuck, i'm tired of my only person to talk to being my boyfriend. he's really the only one who's been there for me lately, and really i just feel crappy because i feel like i'm not giving enough time to him, but at the same time i just wanna have more people who actually CARE. not just people who comment "i care" "i'm here for you" "i'm your friend" but people who actually STAND BEHIND what they say. i want someone to play minecraft with, for endless hours. pull all nighters as we skype and laugh all through the night, someone who knows me as someone they truly call friend, and that no matter what they're going through i'll be there for them, and hopefully they'll be there for me to. someone to distract me when i'm sad, to make me laugh when i cry, and someone i can tell all my secrets and stories to without being afraid, someone to RP with, and knowing no matter how big of a fight we have, we'll be able to go back to each other and apologize and go right back to being best friends again.

right now i just feel all alone in the world, stuck in a pit with no one to pull me out. this depression is literally killing me, and then when this happens, a certain someone decides to show up and rub it all in my face. yes, Scott. for everyone who doesn't know who that is, that's my schizophrenic hallucination. and ever since i stopped talking to him, he's been nothing but nasty to me. now when i'm at my loneliest, it seems i don't even have my own hallucination to talk to. i swear, i don't know if i'm going to survive this, if things keep up as they do.

i'm sorry for wasting your time, seeing that you bothered to read it. i bet no one even bothers reading this all the way through. i should just accept the fact that one one cares anymore.
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: 3DG
  • Reading: roleplays
  • Watching: anime
  • Playing: minecraft
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: kool-aid motherfuckers.
art has slowed to almost a screeching halt.

why??

... i broke my hand.. my art hand. a couple of the bones in the main part of my hand are pretty messed up, but they'll heal. they said i got a fracture in the metacarpal things of my pinky and my ring finger. it's just a pretty bad crack, they said, not even a full break. in a week or two, i'll be fine, no permanent damage, but i have on a stupid splint that looks like images.mooremedical.com/150x15… that.

i just now got back from the doctors. they said i'm fine to type and stuff, but they said to keep using it to a bare minimum. to be safe, i'm typing with my free fingers, not even moving the other two.

so yeah. i can type, but with this thing on, i can't write or draw... so i guess i'll take this time to write. and play minecraft. the two things i can do right now.

anyway, this delays things in my group, because i cannot get the main draft of our epilogue done.


isn't life just dandy??
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: 3DG
  • Reading: roleplays
  • Watching: anime
  • Playing: minecraft
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: kool-aid motherfuckers.
don't know if it's some fucktard making another fake petition, but i signed it just in case. here's info i copy pasted from another person.

IF YOU DO NOTHING, OR DON'T EVEN TRY POSTING A JOURNAL ABOUT THIS, DEVIANTART WILL MOST LIKELY BE SHUT DOWN BECAUSE OF THIS TPP thingy.

Omg, something way worse than SOPA has appeared, and will completely change how you use the internet!!! Please sign and post journals!!! ;A; This is extremely important, oh my god!!!
"EVERYONE NEEDS TO SIGN THIS PETITION RIGHT NOW WHILE YOU STILL HAVE THE INTERNET, COME AND LETS SAVE THE INTERNET WORLD''
Tony Abbott is about the sign off on possibly the worst power grab we've ever seen. The Trans Pacific Partnership (TPP)
If he signed this, your internet provider would be FORCED to POLICE YOUR ACTIVITY, and report everything you do online. There would be NO anonymous browsing, no “incognito” modes, no torrenting, no file sharing, NOTHING. Fanfics, fanarts, fanvids, ANYTHING thought to breach ANY kind of copyright, even in a completely harmless way, would be reported, and after THREE STRIKES, you WILL BE SENTENCED.
You thought SOPA was bad? That is NOTHING compared to the TPP.
SIGN THIS NOW"

SIGN THE PETITION!! petitions.whitehouse.gov/petit… 
Please sign it, and post it all over the internet!!! Facebook, journals, ect!!! wherever!!!
And remember, deviantART will probably be shut down, just because of TPP ;; So please AT LEAST post a journal about this ;; I am sorry for this chain mail but this is super important!
AGAIN, PLEASE EVERYONE SIGN THE PETITION, IT WILL HELP MANY PEOPLE ON THIS WORLD!
SEND THE LINK BELLOW, TO SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE CARE ABOUT THIS!!!
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i will draw your oc (traditional of course) and color it to the best of my abilities (i am very capable shading rainbows)

i can draw ANYTHING cartoonish. do NOT expect me to draw something like a real life human face. XD

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D1scipl31974 3 days ago  Hobbyist Photographer
:)
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xEmoXDudetx 3 days ago  Student Traditional Artist
no prob!
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D1scipl31974 3 days ago  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the faves Dude
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Ask-King-Boo 6 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Can't wait to see more of your art! :3
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xEmoXDudetx Apr 13, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
pretty good. maybe a week and a half or so longer.
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